My Final Post
I have decided to make this the last post to OTinMotion. The reason for this decision is pretty simple and starts back in December. Right before Christmas, I lost sensation in the pads of my left fingers. By the time I went to the neurologist and got an MRI, my left leg was pins and needles. My symptoms are a result of lesions on my cervical spine – small areas of demyelination caused by my immune system attacking my spinal cord. Diagnosing an autoimmune condition like mine can take years, but we have narrowed it down to three potential conditions:
No matter the diagnosis, I am left with decreased sensation in both of my hands and tingling/pins and needles that radiate up my legs and into my chest/back when I walk or something touches my legs. Sometimes, my arms and legs feel like someone has hooked my body up to a perpetual TENS unit – they’re “humming” as I type this post.
I’m hopeful that I have a non-recurring form of transverse myelitis – that my current state is the new normal and I will not have to live in fear of a relapse. I hope that with time, the lesions on my spine will begin to heal. However, this experience has forever changed me.
I have cleared my once heaping plate of responsibility and I’m finding that I prefer an emptier plate. Part of clearing my plate is realizing that I don’t have the energy to maintain this blog. I want to spend my energy on friends and family, healing, and finishing school.
Writing about my experiences in graduate school has connected me with so many amazing people and I am glad that I started on this venture. However, I think it’s time to close this chapter and start a new one.
Thanks to everyone who read and supported this blog!